Saturday 3 September 2011

"Romford Spanking Party" Today...

I love being caned....
Only another 4 1/2 hours until Sir comes to pick us up..."Yaaay!"...I for one can't wait...Because I am planning on getting a lot of spanking's in...6 hours of spanking,drinking red wine,chatting & laughing with our friends..."Bliss!"...Note where spanking comes on my list...Spanking definitely has priority lol...

Though first...Me & Sir have got a few things to sort out.Today is "All change".I am hoping it all goes smoothly.I am dreading finishing with him as my Dom.Then watching them...Aka B...together.All loving & caring & close.Happy because I finished with him to allow him to go & make her his sub...Ummm!...

{HeeHee} love being spanked
with a hair brush otk...
Nooo surely not.Surely he would not be that insensitive to my feelings.I know he does not want to lose me,as a friend,someone he plays with...but...He did admit that he has got a soft spot for B.He feels sorry for B...Ummm!...

Basically the only thing changing is.He will no longer be my Dom.He can play with whom he likes & treat her/them,how he likes.Because he will no longer be exclusive to me.I feel a little sad,after 5 years 2 months.Giving my Dom up to a Bint who can't keep her attention seeking claws out of another subs...Dom!...

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"Mmmm!" Stripy...
Personally.I have more dignity.I did not like how it made me feel.Watching them together & when he said "B hopes you finish with me,so she can be my sub".I thought...To say that to me,you must want that too.He reckons he can't remember what he said & he does not want that...Ummm! lol..."Donk head!"...

Fair enough...but.I don't want to carry on feeling stressed by their insensitive,selfish actions.I would not dream of treating them that way.So...They are free to fulfil her "Hope".I am free to play with whom I like &...I will still carry on playing with Sir.Only a label change lol...

I always seem to find the strap
more painful then the cane.
Especially the heavy punishment strap...
"Ouch!"...
I love playing with him.He is the best spanker EVER!...Okay so I'm bias'd.When you have that close,trusting connection.Where you can totally relax & let yourself go.It is "The best!"...I am a very lucky subbie.I do appreciate having someone who can give me the most amazing,fantastic play sessions...

Anyway.We will get a chance to talk properly later & play of course.It should work out just fine for both of us & hopefully the jealous bitch vibes will stop.Because that is just beginning to wear thin.Yeah! flattering that they feel sooo threatened by me to feel jealous,but "Grrr!" "Grow up" you silly bitch's...

Ohhh!...Yeah! Sir wants to cane me again,whilst bent over the back of the settee.There are a few settees there.Ohhh! & play in the private room.I know what I want to happen in the private room & it does not involve talking {HeeHee}...
"Mmmm!"...I am so looking forward to the party now...

I feel all tingly excited now.Can't wait for the party.We can talk in the car on the way there.Get the discussion out of the way.I just need to work out what to call him.Still "Sir" I spose.Just not "My Dom!"...

I will be back to write about the party......






Monday 29 August 2011

My weekly spanking tarot card..."All change"...

 Love that picture...

The Ace of Cups Tarot Card

The Ace of Cups Tarot Card based on Rider-Waite
When you have found an emotional plateau, you will see the Ace of Cups in your Tarot reading.

Hmmm!...Yes I have reached a so called emotional plateau.I finished with my Dom.I think that is emotional enough lol...

It is all sooo confusing...but some where in my head it all makes sense.Or it will make sense...

This card represents the culmination of a sacrifice that has been rewarded with satisfaction, contentment and a deep, lasting peace.

I am hoping my sacrifice will be rewarded with satisfaction.Because I finished with him,so he can make someone else his sub.He did not ask me out right.Did not finish with me,but..."Actions speak louder then words"...

When your Dom says "so & so hopes you finish with me,so she can be my sub".It gets your mind working over time.Assuming,second guessing "Grrrr!!!".I wish I just said "Is that what you want?"...but I didn't...Ummm!...

Anyway I decided to change things...Be in control of how things end.I have been through a distressful end of a D/s relationship before.I don't want to go there again.The change will hopefully work out.He gets his new subbie.I keep him as a friend & Ummm! play mate.All is happy...

The so called rumours which are supposed to be going around HOPEFULLY stop.The person SUPPOSEDLY jealous of me,because of my now Ex Dom...Will end...I can't be doing with all this.To quote my Ex Dom "Same old-same old crap"...

I love being spanked.I am being spanked very much as myself.I am not interested in the so called Bs politics...{HeeHee} A good way to describe it......

This is the Tarot deck's card of true love and it would be hard to imagine a soulmate Tarot reading without the presence of the Ace of Cups.

Ummm!...Is my now Ex Dom my "soul-Dom" lol...Well there is a close connection.That is why we have been together 5 years 2 months.Because we get on very well as Dom/sub.Both want the same things...Well...So I once thought,but...

Apparently I am "Detached".I was quite hurt by that description.I thought I was "Reserved"...Detached sounds so harsh.Ummm! May be I am detached.Because I am not a OTT emotional,needy,attention seeking type of person...I neither crave attention or overly w/e,give out attention.Though I am never short of Dom's to play with at parties.Or Dom's to sit with at parties.They definitely don't see me as "Detached!"...

The thing is.I get on better with men.Not because I am a "Flirt!".He gets on better with women.They definitely flirt & smother him with their OTT needy,attention seeking,so called fecking "Flirting" sooo called attention.As I have said before.The other Dom's respect him,but his fem subs definitely don't respect me.I get the "Looks"...

So I have just changed things a bit.He is free to make who ever he likes,his sub.I am not going to bother trying to find a new Dom.I am sticking to just playing.It is less stressful that way,but I still want to play with him.If his new sub lets him lol...Ohhhh! the politics......

The Christian ritual of communion is a re-enactment of Christ making the ultimate sacrifice for his followers. When the Ace of Cups appears in a Tarot reading, there is the feeling that a love is so deep that one partner would be willing to die for the other.

Hmmm!...I just don't want to end with hurt,anger,frustration,jealousy...& no way back.Better to be in control of the situation.Ummm! Emotionally "Detached"???...

This is not a harbinger of any such passing, just a metaphor for the depth of the love that is being expressed here. Aces are the culmination of a suit's meaning and Cups represent emotions. The dove, of course, is a symbol of peace; the peace that such love brings a person and the peace that one is able to thus send out into the universe.

Well I want peace.Not stress & arguments...

I am hoping for a peaceful,none stressful future of "Mmmm!" spankings lol...