Ohhh! Gawd!...I feel sooo guilty now.Though I should not take on all the guilt.I have also got the opportunity to sort everything out,so everyone is happy...I hope.
When I changed our relationship from Dom/sub to friends who play.I did not realise that it would effect Sir quite the way it seemed to effect him.Ummm!.I thought it was like just changing the label,but technically still the same.For me nothing has changed.Because I suppose I am the one who changed the so called label.
In my head,he is still my Dom & always will be,but...I have no intention of looking for a replacement Dom.I wasn't really expecting him to be that heartless & just go off & make B his new sub & I must admit there is that slight feeling of relief that she was with another Dom.Her new Dom it seems & she made excuses not to play with Sir.
I will sort it out with her too.I feel guilty cos I caused all the Ummm!...Hassle I spose you would call it,but.Personally.I could not carry on the same after hearing those words..."B hopes you will finish with me,so she can be my sub".Okay he said those words.Forgot he said those words.After the party on Saturday.I now know that they was JUST words.
The saying..."Actions speak louder then words".Well.Their actions spoke volumes,hence me feeling guilty.Though I should not feel guilty.Just a little bit guilty & "Enlightened" lol...
Anyway.Back to the party & my second spanking,which was with S.We was playing on the settee.I was over his lap.He was giving me a gentle,sensuous,erotic,soothing,relaxing hand spanking.The only thing keeping me awake was his talking lol...
The hand spanks on my thighs were a lot more stingy..."Oowww!",but still quite erotic.I like erotic thigh spanking.Definitely not hard,strap,or cane thigh spanking.That is just too unbearable.The most gentle slap stings...
After sending me off into relaxed subbie land.He made me get up.So I could kneel on the settee & bend over the arm,my body resting on the arm chair the other side.S used his leather strap & cane in that position.Still not hard,but building up & up in intensity until I was gasping from the burning,stinging sensations which were building.As I said before.I like different styles of spanking.S has got his own unique style lol...
Ohhh! Who I played with next.I did not like his style at ALL...I will write about that next time......
I had only taken a $20. The people I nannied for had a whole wad of cash in a kitchen drawer and I planned on returning it before anyone noticed. Apparently someone did.
“I’m so sorry Sir.” I told him for the four hundredth time. “It won’t happen again, I swear. Please don’t fire me, I need this job!” He sighed and rubbed his forehead.
“I don’t want to fire you,” He admitted, “My wife was upset and told me to talk to you today. The kids aren’t even here this morning. She stayed home to take care of them and they’re all out right now. This is just completely unacceptable. We trust you with our children, when you steal from us that trust is broken.”
“Isn’t there anything I can do to regain your trust?” I pleaded, “I promise I won’t do this again. I feel awful, I totally regret it.”
“I’ll make you regret it.” He said, his voice harsher than before, “Listen, I won’t fire you this time, but I’m not just going to let this go. You stole from us and you need to be punished for it.” He grabbed my hand and led into the family room. He sat down on the couch and I stood nervously beside him. “Get over my knee,” he said sternly. My eyes grew wide.
“You’re going to spank me?!?” I asked, horrified.
“Yes,” he said, “if you want to keep this job then we’re dealing with this my way. Now bend over.” I stood there for a moment, not knowing what to do. I thought about my options, or lack thereof. I took a deep breath and lowered myself over his lap. He flipped my skirt up and adjusted me on his knee. I blushed and tried to reach back to cover myself. He grabbed my hand and pinned it behind my back. Slowly and firmly he began to spank me. Each slap leaving a stinging hand print on my ass. After a few minutes he let go of my hand, I started to get up thinking he was finished, but he pushed me back down. I felt the cool breeze on my burning ass as he lowered my panties to my ankles and slid them off. I turned scarlet. He held me tightly and began to slap faster and faster. I squirmed from the pain and tried to get away but he was a lot bigger and stronger. I started to whine and he stopped. He stood me up and took both of my hands in his, looking directly into my eyes. “Go into my bedroom,” he said, “And get my wife’s hairbrush and bring it here.” My heart sank and I slowly trudged into the room.
I returned a moment later with the brush. I handed it to him and he motioned for me to go back over his knee. I put my hands on the floor to brace myself. The first whack hurt a lot more than I expected. I frantically tried to get away but he pushed my head back down and held me tight. The smacks went on and on, my ass growing redder and redder. When he finally stopped I was laying limp across his lap. Whimpering in pain. “Stand up.” He ordered. I did as I was told, not wanting any more trouble. He pulled my skirt down to the floor and told me bend over the couch. I cringed as I saw him unhook his belt. I bent over and put my hands flat, I tried to prepare myself for the pain. I yelped with each hit, burning up the backs of my thighs and my red ass. My knees buckled and he waited while I got back in position and then continued with the beating. When he was done I stood there, sobbing. I heard him put his belt back on and then silence as he stood there, staring at me.
“I’m sorry, sweetheart.” He said softly. He walked over and pulled me into his lap. I curled up against his chest and cried as his stroked my hair. “Shhhh...” he whispered. He scooped me up in his arms and carried me to his bedroom. He laid me on the bed and crawled up beside me. I looked at him through tear soaked eyes, he looked concerned. He ran his hand over my stomach and then under my shirt. I sat up so he could slide it over my head and then took of my bra and tossed it to the floor. For a moment he just ran his hands over my young, naked body. I was still shaken up from the spanking and so he kissed me gently on the stomach and then my lips. “You’ve wanted this…” he whispered in my ear. I moaned and kissed him hard. He climbed off of me and stripped off all of his clothes and then came back to bed.
I had never been with a man this much older than me. I felt nervous, as if it were my first time. He cradled my head in his hand and kissed me softly again. He climbed on top of me and I spread my legs to make room for him. I reached down between my legs to guide him into me. I moaned and arched my back as he slid inside. He kissed my neck and my chest and then my lips. He lifted my arms up over my head and pinned them to the bed. He thrusted in and out of me, hard and fast, making me moan loudly. I rocked my hips beneath him, begging him to make me cum. He started thrusting faster and I began to shake. He released my hands and put his hand around my throat, choking me while I came, thrashing and moaning. When I relaxed he released me. He slid down between my legs and hungrily licked me up and down while I quivered with every touch.
“Your turn,” I told him. I slid out from beneath him and pushed him back on to the bed. He laid there, one arm behind his head and a big smile on his face. I knelt beside him with my hands behind my back, I shot him a mischievous grin and then opened my mouth wide to take him all in. I sucked him hard and slow, tasting myself on him. As I sped up he put his free hand on top of my head to guide me, pushing me when he wanted me to go faster. I felt his cock swell as the cum began to shoot into my mouth. I swallowed again and again, trying not to miss a drop. We heard the front door open and we both quickly and quietly dressed. My eyes were still red and swollen from crying, as I walked to the door I put on my best sad face, “I’m sorry ma’am, it won’t happen again. I’ll see you Monday.”