Monday 5 September 2011

"Romford Spanking Party" Part Two...Sensual,erotic over the knee spanking to stinging spanks on the thighs "Ouch!" but "Mmmm!"...

Ohhh! Gawd!...I feel sooo guilty now.Though I should not take on all the guilt.I have also got the opportunity to sort everything out,so everyone is happy...I hope.

When I changed our relationship from Dom/sub to friends who play.I did not realise that it would effect Sir quite the way it seemed to effect him.Ummm!.I thought it was like just changing the label,but technically still the same.For me nothing has changed.Because I suppose I am the one who changed the so called label.

In my head,he is still my Dom & always will be,but...I have no intention of looking for a replacement Dom.I wasn't really expecting him to be that heartless & just go off & make B his new sub & I must admit there is that slight feeling of relief that she was with another Dom.Her new Dom it seems & she made excuses not to play with Sir.

I will sort it out with her too.I feel guilty cos I caused all the Ummm!...Hassle I spose you would call it,but.Personally.I could not carry on the same after hearing those words..."B hopes you will finish with me,so she can be my sub".Okay he said those words.Forgot he said those words.After the party on Saturday.I now know that they was JUST words.

The saying..."Actions speak louder then words".Well.Their actions spoke volumes,hence me feeling guilty.Though I should not feel guilty.Just a little bit guilty & "Enlightened" lol...

Anyway.Back to the party & my second spanking,which was with S.We was playing on the settee.I was over his lap.He was giving me a gentle,sensuous,erotic,soothing,relaxing hand spanking.The only thing keeping me awake was his talking lol...

The hand spanks on my thighs were a lot more stingy..."Oowww!",but still quite erotic.I like erotic thigh spanking.Definitely not hard,strap,or cane thigh spanking.That is just too unbearable.The most gentle slap stings...

After sending me off into relaxed subbie land.He made me get up.So I could kneel on the settee & bend over the arm,my body resting on the arm chair the other side.S used his leather strap & cane in that position.Still not hard,but building up & up in intensity until I was gasping from the burning,stinging sensations which were building.As I said before.I like different styles of spanking.S has got his own unique style lol...

Ohhh! Who I played with next.I did not like his style at ALL...I will write about that next time......


Sunday 4 September 2011

"Romford Spanking Party" Part One...Over the knee warm up spanking,then caned...

Love that pic...
We went to the party in Romford yesterday.It ended up being very Ummm!...Over whelming.For me anyway.Loads of Dom's.All wanting to play.One Dom in particular being waaay too pushy.He was "Want to play now?".I was "No not yet,I am sitting down having a drink" {Or words to that effect}.He was "What time?".I was "Eh?".& thinking "Grrr!!!" I hate it when you do that to be,but I politely said I don't know.Then I was told NOT to play with anyone else before him.That HE wanted me fresh {Or words to that effect}.So of course I went & played with S before him lol...

I enjoy playing with S.Though he is veeery gentle & talks-talks & talks some more,but I like his spanking style.As I said to him.I like playing with different Doms.I like different styles...He is my gentle,soothing,relaxation spanker after the hard spanking Sir gave me..."Oowww!".For a warm up spanking Sir gave me a really hard stingy hand spanking.Luckily not so hard with the heavy punishment strap "Phew!".I was still Sirs first spankee...

My fav...Otk spanking...
We didn't really end up actually discussing the end of our D/s relationship.It was more a "Is that what you want.Friends who play?".I said "Yes".I don't think that is what he really wanted,but I think it will be better for me in the long run.I told one Ummm!.Jealous woman that our relationship had changed.That we was no longer exclusive.Basically telling her the nice,polite,read between the lines luv.There is no longer any need for your jealousy.He is available.Free for all your womanly wiles {HeeHee} love that word "Wiles"...

Anyway.Sir also caned me.HARD!.Whilst I was kneeling on the spanking bench.It was really painful,but when Sir asked me if I wanted him to stop.I said "No"..."Oowww!".Being caned from the left.When I am used to being caned from the right.Is extra painful.That got me yelping my head off & gripping the side of the bench with my feet.Afterwards Sir gave me a hug & told me that he would like to play with me again at the party & that I could come find him if I wanted him...

Saturday 3 September 2011

"Romford Spanking Party" Today...

I love being caned....
Only another 4 1/2 hours until Sir comes to pick us up..."Yaaay!"...I for one can't wait...Because I am planning on getting a lot of spanking's in...6 hours of spanking,drinking red wine,chatting & laughing with our friends..."Bliss!"...Note where spanking comes on my list...Spanking definitely has priority lol...

Though first...Me & Sir have got a few things to sort out.Today is "All change".I am hoping it all goes smoothly.I am dreading finishing with him as my Dom.Then watching them...Aka B...together.All loving & caring & close.Happy because I finished with him to allow him to go & make her his sub...Ummm!...

{HeeHee} love being spanked
with a hair brush otk...
Nooo surely not.Surely he would not be that insensitive to my feelings.I know he does not want to lose me,as a friend,someone he plays with...but...He did admit that he has got a soft spot for B.He feels sorry for B...Ummm!...

Basically the only thing changing is.He will no longer be my Dom.He can play with whom he likes & treat her/them,how he likes.Because he will no longer be exclusive to me.I feel a little sad,after 5 years 2 months.Giving my Dom up to a Bint who can't keep her attention seeking claws out of another subs...Dom!...

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"Mmmm!" Stripy...
Personally.I have more dignity.I did not like how it made me feel.Watching them together & when he said "B hopes you finish with me,so she can be my sub".I thought...To say that to me,you must want that too.He reckons he can't remember what he said & he does not want that...Ummm! lol..."Donk head!"...

Fair enough...but.I don't want to carry on feeling stressed by their insensitive,selfish actions.I would not dream of treating them that way.So...They are free to fulfil her "Hope".I am free to play with whom I like &...I will still carry on playing with Sir.Only a label change lol...

I always seem to find the strap
more painful then the cane.
Especially the heavy punishment strap...
"Ouch!"...
I love playing with him.He is the best spanker EVER!...Okay so I'm bias'd.When you have that close,trusting connection.Where you can totally relax & let yourself go.It is "The best!"...I am a very lucky subbie.I do appreciate having someone who can give me the most amazing,fantastic play sessions...

Anyway.We will get a chance to talk properly later & play of course.It should work out just fine for both of us & hopefully the jealous bitch vibes will stop.Because that is just beginning to wear thin.Yeah! flattering that they feel sooo threatened by me to feel jealous,but "Grrr!" "Grow up" you silly bitch's...

Ohhh!...Yeah! Sir wants to cane me again,whilst bent over the back of the settee.There are a few settees there.Ohhh! & play in the private room.I know what I want to happen in the private room & it does not involve talking {HeeHee}...
"Mmmm!"...I am so looking forward to the party now...

I feel all tingly excited now.Can't wait for the party.We can talk in the car on the way there.Get the discussion out of the way.I just need to work out what to call him.Still "Sir" I spose.Just not "My Dom!"...

I will be back to write about the party......






Monday 29 August 2011

My weekly spanking tarot card..."All change"...

 Love that picture...

The Ace of Cups Tarot Card

The Ace of Cups Tarot Card based on Rider-Waite
When you have found an emotional plateau, you will see the Ace of Cups in your Tarot reading.

Hmmm!...Yes I have reached a so called emotional plateau.I finished with my Dom.I think that is emotional enough lol...

It is all sooo confusing...but some where in my head it all makes sense.Or it will make sense...

This card represents the culmination of a sacrifice that has been rewarded with satisfaction, contentment and a deep, lasting peace.

I am hoping my sacrifice will be rewarded with satisfaction.Because I finished with him,so he can make someone else his sub.He did not ask me out right.Did not finish with me,but..."Actions speak louder then words"...

When your Dom says "so & so hopes you finish with me,so she can be my sub".It gets your mind working over time.Assuming,second guessing "Grrrr!!!".I wish I just said "Is that what you want?"...but I didn't...Ummm!...

Anyway I decided to change things...Be in control of how things end.I have been through a distressful end of a D/s relationship before.I don't want to go there again.The change will hopefully work out.He gets his new subbie.I keep him as a friend & Ummm! play mate.All is happy...

The so called rumours which are supposed to be going around HOPEFULLY stop.The person SUPPOSEDLY jealous of me,because of my now Ex Dom...Will end...I can't be doing with all this.To quote my Ex Dom "Same old-same old crap"...

I love being spanked.I am being spanked very much as myself.I am not interested in the so called Bs politics...{HeeHee} A good way to describe it......

This is the Tarot deck's card of true love and it would be hard to imagine a soulmate Tarot reading without the presence of the Ace of Cups.

Ummm!...Is my now Ex Dom my "soul-Dom" lol...Well there is a close connection.That is why we have been together 5 years 2 months.Because we get on very well as Dom/sub.Both want the same things...Well...So I once thought,but...

Apparently I am "Detached".I was quite hurt by that description.I thought I was "Reserved"...Detached sounds so harsh.Ummm! May be I am detached.Because I am not a OTT emotional,needy,attention seeking type of person...I neither crave attention or overly w/e,give out attention.Though I am never short of Dom's to play with at parties.Or Dom's to sit with at parties.They definitely don't see me as "Detached!"...

The thing is.I get on better with men.Not because I am a "Flirt!".He gets on better with women.They definitely flirt & smother him with their OTT needy,attention seeking,so called fecking "Flirting" sooo called attention.As I have said before.The other Dom's respect him,but his fem subs definitely don't respect me.I get the "Looks"...

So I have just changed things a bit.He is free to make who ever he likes,his sub.I am not going to bother trying to find a new Dom.I am sticking to just playing.It is less stressful that way,but I still want to play with him.If his new sub lets him lol...Ohhhh! the politics......

The Christian ritual of communion is a re-enactment of Christ making the ultimate sacrifice for his followers. When the Ace of Cups appears in a Tarot reading, there is the feeling that a love is so deep that one partner would be willing to die for the other.

Hmmm!...I just don't want to end with hurt,anger,frustration,jealousy...& no way back.Better to be in control of the situation.Ummm! Emotionally "Detached"???...

This is not a harbinger of any such passing, just a metaphor for the depth of the love that is being expressed here. Aces are the culmination of a suit's meaning and Cups represent emotions. The dove, of course, is a symbol of peace; the peace that such love brings a person and the peace that one is able to thus send out into the universe.

Well I want peace.Not stress & arguments...

I am hoping for a peaceful,none stressful future of "Mmmm!" spankings lol...

Saturday 27 August 2011

"Pussy whipping"...

I love being pussy whipped.Not just using a whip lol...Being caned.Then when my Dom taps the tip of the cane against my clit & gently pushes the tip into my......"Mmmm!" well you can imagine...Intense,cutting,stinging,burning,almost unbearable pain.Then exquisite tingling,burning.The sensations are "WOW!!!"...

pussy whipped in bondage
Love that position...












hard pussy whipping Would love to try that...
 Tied naked on a cold hard table & pussy whipped...Very "Mmmm!"
  Oo! lol...

I know what I want to try when next I play lol...Though.I do love being pussy whipped whilst bent over,rather then on my back....

A New Level Of Trust By Sarah Thorne©-{story} The Belt. "Pussy whipping"...



By Sarah Thorne©
The Belt.After about 30 strokes, her bottom had a nice glow and tingled exquisitely. She was very wet and begged Paul to make her cum but he had other things in mind. Unfastening her restraints, he turned her over and then refastened while she was on her back. Then he took out a second pair and proceeded to spread her legs far apart, fastening them to the footboard. She was confused and her heart skipped a beat when she saw that once more he picked up the belt.

"Oh my god, no!" her heart about failed, but all he said was, "Trust me?"
Hell no!  Her mind screamed. "Oh, god, Paul...."once again, her legs trembling as she lay splayed, helpless. To him, it was such a precious sight. How in the world, she thought, could this turn into a good thing?

"Trust me?" he asked again. "If not, tell me. I won't do it."

A way out! But the truth was, as perplexed and horribly frightened that she was, she did trust him. She had absolutely no idea what he was about to do and honestly did not want to find out, but she could not bear to hurt him......to disappoint him by saying she did not trust him. So again she whispered, "Yes, Paul....I trust you."

He knelt on the bed between her legs, taking the tip of the belt in his hand, the edge, and ran the supple leather up and down her spread out sex. Very wet she was as he ran it back and forth over the covered little nubbin that had retreated from view, softly, until his wife's movements were in rhythm with the belt. He took the belt's end and held it to where about approximately 6 inches of it was protruding from the end of his hand and began to use the leather's flexibility to lightly slap the tiny hood, while fingers entered her, moving in and out, doing a dance on her soft, spongy spot on the inside. Pulling at the restraints, Bev was beside herself. She tried to escape the continuous slapping on such a tender body part  yet at the same time, rising to meet each slap. It was already so hyper-sensitive from her first climax and quickly she climbed, higher and higher, hips rising to meet her tormentor. Cries sonorous, shudders harsh as she peaked and then tumbled under the relentless leather, thrashing best she could while held captive, fingers torturing, belt still softly slapping. The heat flowed up from her loins, through her belly, over her whole body until she was dizzy and breathless. As she quieted, Paul threw the belt aside and mounted his helpless prisoner, thrusting hard and fast, pelvis in just the right position to reactivate her hooded pleasure until she cried out with him, body racked in another good cum while he released, pulsating within her depths, then collapsed, spent, on top of her. After a time of silence, Bev spoke up.

"You know," she said. "I think I really like the belt now. As a matter of fact, I think we should use it more often."


Thursday 25 August 2011

Does a thong matter? A Thread on the British Spanking web site...


Does a thong matter?
I see in the gallery a number of pictures of women after they have been spanked and they are wearing thongs. & Presumably the thong was on during the spanking. Does wearing a thong while being spanked matter? & One might say no, since the area exposed to the spanker is the same, therefore the experience would be the same. I disagree. & When I spank a woman I require that the area between the waist and the knees be completely uncovered. There is a reason for this. When a woman's anus and labia are exposed it signifies that she is, in her mind, submitting sexually to her spanker. This is true even if her labia and/or anus is not visible because of positioning or body type. & To me the essence of a consensual spanking is not one party giving the other a sore backside. & The essence is one person, in his or her mind, submitting sexually to the other. There is some submission with a thong on, but it is not the same.

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Love the pictures on this site
I just went to browse the British spanking web site...& came across this thread.Which got me thinking.Reading what other people had to say was quite interesting too.

I love being spanked on my bare bottom.I find being spanked very sexual,though I don't want sex with every Dom I play with.I can become very submissive when playing.I think I would have the sensations fully clothed,but wearing a thong,I would find that more frustrating lol.Bare but not exposed.For me part of being given a bare bottom spanking is that feeling of being exposed...

Though I have to feel comfortable with the Dom spanking me.Fully clothed or exposed.There has to be a feeling of trust.That he will not go too far.There has been a few Dom's who have made me feel uncomfortable.So I did not want to play with them.The thought of them spanking me on my bare bottom made my skin crawl.So for me it is very much about...Ummm!...Having a close connection?...

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"Mmmm!" Love that position...
Tied down,
exposed to both his lustful gaze
 and helplessly positioned
for the business at hand,
I awaited punishment. 
Tied down, exposed to both his lustful gaze and helplessly positioned for the business at hand, I awaited punishment. 


I love the sensation of intense pain,then a soothing rub,rubbing away the burning sting,but I have to feel comfortable with the Dom who is rubbing my bare bottom.Wearing a thong would make me feel like my knickers had been pulled up tight,exposing just my bottom cheeks.I find that sensation aggravating lol.Though I have never told a Dom that,who has done that to me.I get a lot of extra pleasure from the sensation of my knickers being pulled right down,past my pussy,feeling the air on my pussy...If I was wearing a thong.I would miss out on that "Mmmm!" sensation...

I get a tingling thrill go right through me,when my Dom manoeuvres me so I am across one knee & he brings his legs back so I end up on tip toe.That makes me feel very exposed & very turned on.It also exposes a more sensitive area for spanking.Is very "Mmmm!".......